The Next Thing

The peace that surpasses all understanding, in a mysterious way, has the ability to give you what you gave up in the first place in order to receive it. "In acceptance lieth peace," said Amy Carmichael.
Is it possible that in peace lieth understanding?

We give up our desire to understand, and accept through trust..then..we receive peace, and gain understanding. 

Not a day goes by that doesn't bring  new opportunities to know Him. I recognize my chance to put into practice my obedience to Him, and I'm left with a choice. 

Day by day, I come to believe the promise is true; He cannot forget one whom He lays down His life for. I made up my mind years ago that I wanted one thing beyond all things, and that was to know Jesus. To be ruled by His love. However, more times than wanted, have I found myself under the rule of a lesser. A danger to the obedience and longings my heart and journals are so full of. 

So here I am, on U.S. soil, single, and no where near the fields or paths I've dreamt and imagined I would be upon the age 24. To Whom all desire is known, and no secrets are hidden, I bring this all to.

I come again, to believe the promise.

As a result, I find I know & understand His love a little more. The gift has kept giving.

Just like the great prophets of old asked "how, Lord?" so it is today.

 He answers with, "I AM."

I see full well that not knowing what's next is hard. I know, too, that this uncertainty can always be evaded, but if it is, my result is endless loss- for it is the cross that has come in the form of uncertainty.

I hold tight to my heart, and understand all I could be rejecting, and with both hands I pick it up. 

I do not know Thy plan for years to come,

My spirit finds in Thee its perfect home,

Sufficiency.

Lord, all my desire is before Thee now,

Lead on, no matter where, no matter how--

I trust in Thee.