I am learning a lot about my focus, and the attitude I hold with it. Being within my last year of college, and knowing that graduation is just around the corner, I have never wrestled with confusion and lack of faith more than now. I have a tendency to search & pick up anything that might give me answers and security- it illuminates the waiting and relieves the fear. However, that isn’t the path my heart is after, so I have found the Lord repeatedly pushing me to be still, trust, and listen.
And so He is teaching me-
My focus point is Jesus. Therefore, my goal and destination is not so much a geographical location; it is a Person. Whether I become a missionary, employee, wife, or stay-at-home mom, my focus is the same. HE is my pursuit. HE is the direction I am heading—and I can go there now.
I must not cast my eyes about, looking overseas, wondering if it will be this or that city or country or people group. I have to keep striving to set my eyes, and heart, firmly fixed on Him. Where He goes, I go. This simplifies things. I do not have to obsess over where I am going or where God is calling me. God is calling me to pursue Jesus.
So I am going to continue to let Him teach me, by His kindness and grace- to get very still before Him and learn to recognize His voice more- Building up my determination to only walk in obedience. If He has not given me the go-ahead for the next step, I must fight the urge to take one on my own wisdom. –I will wait. Wait on Him to tell me. I have seen and know that He is always trustworthy and faithful to lead, even when His guidance comes at the last minute.
“We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting Him, He endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now He is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne.” -Hebrews 12:2
